Over the span of a few hours, I have felt joy, pain, unhappiness.....Now I feel so numb, it's almost unreal.
Like reality is just hitting me. The gravity, oh the gravity just sinking in.
You know, when I set out this morning, I envisaged that I might be stressed towards my elastic limit physically, I had no idea it would creep into my emotions.
Over the years, I have loved few people. When I think of my "loved ones" her face comes to mind. Well, why wouldn't it? She's totally cool.
I couldn't bring myself to say beyond those three lines...
I was so scared I would say the wrong thing! It took enough energy not to shed tears.
Saying I feel her pain would be a blatant lie......because I don't and I never want to... But she just seems to be "dying" beneath that burden of pain.... And I feel very helpless, because there is nothing we can do about it..... I wonder what kind of thoughts are going through her head.
Though we might not easily notice, we have infinitesimal control over what befalls us. Like, when something happens to someone it's so easy for us to say things like "cheer up", "it's not that bad", "let's not cry over spilt milk" e.t.c. But when it happens to you or someone you love, you just feel numb, shattered.......
I guess we really need to begin to see beyond our noses.
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