DETOX

*dougies all over page*..... Argghh! *dusting cobwebs* ... Its been too long.
Anyways, whassup y'all!? ( I feel like I'm talkig to myself. Who reads this thing anyways *rme*)

What brings me here? *trying to remember* oh yeah I'm "detoxing". No, I'm not addicted to Vicodin or any other drug. Its a "friendship detox". Think of it as purging my hard drive of unnecessary cookies.
When certain "friends" infect your life, sometimes you just need to say good-bye- and good riddance.

Its that time of the year when people tend to take stock of their lives and look back on how they've spent the past twelve months... It occurred to me during this "stock-taking", that I have so many acquaintances and few friends.... So let's just say I'm doing an "acquaintance detox"..... Who knows I might end up with room for more friends.

*sigh* I miss my Uppercrust fam- Deolu, Banky, Mannie P, Leema, Tunde, Nike, Chris.... At least we woulda found something (stupid) to do and I wouldn't be here writing this.. You guyz rock!
There were "up sides" to my stock-taking too. Reminded me of the great people in my life :)
Shout out to:
Tesa- she practically saved my life
Fisayo- my 2011 official shoulder-to-cry-on.
Kike- the bestest friend ever.
Imran- for keeping his trouble out of my reach (of course I'm still looking)
Eromo- for positive (*rme*) intimidation
Ademola-this one has the heart of twenty men.
Maryam- always rekindles hope. Always.
Sherifah- she made me do this. You rock ma'am *takes a bow*

If you're not here, I probably forgot (10% probability) or you weren't a part of my 2011 (90% probability) :D.
Yes you're supposed to be sad. You should cry even. That's the point don't you get? *rme* Mscheeeew

P.S: no subs intended :D

I AM KING ONYX

I'm not sure I need much introduction.

I am King Onyx. In other words, I am not a female weakling.

Yes I have what you might call "trust issues" though I won't call it that.
I just don't like being disappointed where it could have been avoided, so I don't give you the "opportunity" to "eff me up".
This way, I expect little or nothing from people. Don't start thinking you can try to cure me. Its in bred. A sort of "defense mechanism". I'm grateful. Its saved my skin a lot of times.

I have few friends, a lot of acquaintances. My friends say I have no feelings.........lol. That's not true I've only been "forming macho".
I have no problem with walking/being alone.

In your opinion, I might be "dead", but remember, your opinion doesn't count :). How you see me doesn't change how I see myself.

I love my life.... I'm blessed...... I'm grateful.

Oh and I'm single (atleast as at the time of this post).

I dunno why I have a thing for Malo boys. Holla if you are ;).

The easiest way to have me cut you out of my life is to ignore me on a steady. I do not like being ignored.

What brought me here this saturday morning I do not know, but I sure feel better.

DEFY IT

Usually, when people are asked what they want (in life),they probably "boot" for a while, and probably end up going: "shrug ionno".

I think what everyone wants whether they know it or not, is peace, love and happiness (any combination of these three is just fine).With more emphasis on the last one tho.

Now its the things that get us there that differ. Obviously, the things that satisfy me aren't the things that satisfy you.

"Man, know thyself". This is one "saying" I like to use a lot and I think its self explanatory. Know yourself, be comfortable in your own skin,dont struggle to do what others have grace to do; find yours.

The things a good novel, a comfortable couch and a bowl of hot amala (gbono feli feli) would do for me on a friday night, I doubt any clubbing session can achieve. But hey that's me!

What I'm trying to say is, heyy you're a beautiful, unique creation of God and there just has to be something special about you. Trust me you don't need to kill yourself about not "fitting in". It's not like I'm saying you shouldn't interact with people appropriately. Thing is,don't do that to the detriment of your SELF. Yeah, you have a "self". Don't kill that "unique specimen" (you) with your fears and feelings of inferiority complex bla bla.

Besides, what people think of as the 'standard' in any place is made up of people's opinions(basically). Why not just stick with your own opinion and you never know, people might actually tend towards it.

BOTTOMLINE:THINK OUTTA THE BOX; DEFY THE "NORM".

JUST ME AGAIN :)

I'm supposed to be studying. My exams are starting on monday and I am yelling at Deolu to stop tweeting and read his book when I'm here plessing computer. Anyways, I just felt like I had to say something... Its been a while. I read something today and it got me thinking. I always like to say there is no prototype written anywhere or stated anywhere for people to follow........... so firstly, don't walk up to me and tell me "All girls are sad" *rme* that's just an example though. I'm hoping you get what I mean. If you don't,\___________ lie here and think about it. :D.

Okay this (hopefully) has no element of recoil theory in it (for all of you that think that every single tweet or post I make is about you).

Let's just say I've been "finding" myself, and looking back I can't say I'm proud of everything I've done. I know I've said this before, but do not let your happiness revolve around people. I did that for a while and I'm still paying for it. (B'lee that)

Everyone has a heart and so, everyone feels pain...(even people that claim "anti-cupid" like me) lol.

Anyways, I think I'm done finding myself and I think I've stopped paying for that one mistake too. It wont happen again.

This doesn't exactly make sense to me too *shrug*

OkBye!

CAPTAIN (MISS) OBVIOUS.

*sigh*
There is poverty in the land. It is so highly pronounced, it makes one sad.
To think that there was once a time in this country that poverty was a foreign concept.
Someone once said "The failure of Governance in this country is better expressed in silence than in words". Well, in a way I agree. I mean, we can talk all we want-the way we've been talking since all these days. Matter of fact, I am of the opinion that we like "talky-talky" too much in this country... And big big oyinbo..... (As long as someone is blowing grammar, we don't even want to listen to the CONTENT).
Bottomline: we are all talk, no action.

The average Nigerian family is like a mini Government; providing its own electricity, water, security e.t.c........ Beht why!?

Ok let me come out clean........ Something happened today. Something that left my eyes wide open.
You know, whenever I see all those "UNICEF" programmes on T.V, with all those under-nourished children and all, it used to look very distant. Almost untrue...

But today, I saw poverty in Nigeria. Concentrated one. Forgive me if I sound funny but, I can't go into details (breach of trust) believe me though, there are A LOT of very poor people in Nigeria. (Yeah you can say "captain obvious" at this point)........ If not for our suffering-and-smiling-attitude ehn, smh.


I'm still reeling from the shock of the experience I had today and it makes me feel like every individual needs to be conscious as per social responsibilty.

MY MANY REASONS TO BE HAPPY

These past few days, I have to agree I haven't been the most cheerful person on earth.
But really, its nobody's business if you go about "carrying face" for no reason, or for a reason that doesn't concern them.

Thinking about it, it's almost like I was upset about things I couldn't control all the time and I forgot my many reasons to be happy (matter of fact, I have maaany reasons to be happy and you do too). So, if we look at it from another perspective, staying unhappy is being ungrateful!

One major thing I learnt is; never let your happiness revolve around people.... People change. Never let your happiness revolve around things too.......they fade.

Just be grateful to God, be comfortable in your own skin and be happy with your life. Better be a first class version of yourself than a second class version of someone else.

When it feels like everything is going wrong, just remember your blessings and try to be happy. If nothing more, you owe it to yourself.

xo

I CALL THIS LIBERATION.

Where to start from?? *thinking*
Ok, Now there is healthy competition. It's very much welcome if you ask me. Infact, I find it refreshingly liberating. It's like someone just lifted a jinx and I can smile again. You know that kind of smile that comes from deep within? Yeah! That one!

Once my facebook status read:
"Them: Don't lock us out
Me: Ok, don't stay out late".
And then someone commented saying "Bad roomates" Lol!
I guess that was my own way of saying "keep doing as you like o, one day you'd come back and I'ld have gone...... I'ld have shut you out!"

** It's raining by the way, bliss! I just love the rain! (That's when I'm inside tho).

Ok back to what I was saying. I was listening to Asha's "Why can't we" a while ago and this:
"Thought you were next to me but then I see you walking away,
Something aint right this morning,
Is that a sign he is leaving me?
So I call on a friend who might know better than me.
She says: You worry much about things you don't understand....." caught my attention.
In another part, she says "You worry much about things you cannot see"

So maybe I've been worrying much about things I cannot see, That's because I've had reason to!

Anyways, I'm glad to tell you that I've left (Or I think I have) :)
It's a huge relief for me.
You probably wouldn't even notice for a while! The better for me........ I'ld have run far far away.

Ciao!
Lesson Learnt: GO HARD OR GO HOME!!!

MYOPIA OF MAN

Over the span of a few hours, I have felt joy, pain, unhappiness.....Now I feel so numb, it's almost unreal.
Like reality is just hitting me. The gravity, oh the gravity just sinking in.

You know, when I set out this morning, I envisaged that I might be stressed towards my elastic limit physically, I had no idea it would creep into my emotions.

Over the years, I have loved few people. When I think of my "loved ones" her face comes to mind. Well, why wouldn't it? She's totally cool.

I couldn't bring myself to say beyond those three lines...
I was so scared I would say the wrong thing! It took enough energy not to shed tears.

Saying I feel her pain would be a blatant lie......because I don't and I never want to... But she just seems to be "dying" beneath that burden of pain.... And I feel very helpless, because there is nothing we can do about it..... I wonder what kind of thoughts are going through her head.

Though we might not easily notice, we have infinitesimal control over what befalls us. Like, when something happens to someone it's so easy for us to say things like "cheer up", "it's not that bad", "let's not cry over spilt milk" e.t.c. But when it happens to you or someone you love, you just feel numb, shattered.......

I guess we really need to begin to see beyond our noses.

OPTIMISM

Smile 'cause you're alive.
Smile 'cause you're happy
ok so maybe you're not totally happy yet....smile 'cause you know you'll soon be happy (faith).
The whole point is about faith and optimism. These two are highly powerful forces if we but knew.
A saying goes ''be optimistic even if you are in the eye of the storm''
That doesn't sound too easy but at least it it prevents you from dying ''multiple deaths''
In a way, I think we can relate pessimissm to cowardice and these two are highly instrumental forces that hinder us from reaching our ''promise land''.

From:zerorestrictions.blogspot.com

SELF-ish!!

Thank you for believing me,
Thank you for encouraging me to do the same.
Thank you for believing IN me,
Thank you for encouraging me to do the same.
Thank you for trusting me,
Thank you for encouraging me to do the same.

In a way, it made me realize that believing in the "self" is not something many can boast of.
Yet, numerous advantages lie therein.
Believing in yourself propels you forward. It gives you this kind of nudge when you're about to call it quits.............and that teeny-weeny nudge, makes you want to give whatever it is, one more try and whoever it is, one more chance.





Not a bad value to possess if you ask me!

From: zerorestrictions.blogspot.com

DARE WE HOPE??

About 70% of young Nigerians I have come across in recent times have had a few questions in common concerning the forthcoming elections. "Dare We hope for a better Nigeria?
Dare We hope for free and fair elections?
Dare We hope for the prevalence of justice?
Dare We hope for proper execution of the rule of law?
Yes We dare! Because hope is all we have (more or less).

People say the only constant thing in life is change, indeed it is. If we truly yearn for a change in Nigeria or better yet, a better Nigeria, We must be advocators of change.
The communities in which we live are made up of families. Each family is made up of individuals. And so in order to make a meaningful change in the community, it is the responsibility of each individual.
Yes, it begins with you. If we all put our minds to it, a lot is achievable.

Now is one of such times we can make our voices heard. Our unified voices advocating a better Nigeria.

Be part of the change you so desire. Get up, go out and, "R.S.V.P".
It's called the "R.S.V.P" and no it doesn't mean "Rice & Soup Very Plenty"....

R - Register for the 2011 general elections.

S - Select a suitable candidate (I recommend that we set aside sentiments and pick a credible and visionary leader).

V - Vote at the appointed time.

P - Protect your votes....

If you really want to have a say in the issues that concern your future, this is a "small but mighty" way to start.

Remember, change begins with you!

LIKE A NEW TOY (OR NOT).

As with a toddler, a shiny new toy gains his love (at first sight probably). With time, the toy might have to constantly devise "strategies" to stay in its love's good books. Sooner than later, it'll run out of ideas and their love will probably turn sour.
Bottomline: It'll be tossed in the attic.

The once shiny new toy is now condemned to the attic to be a thing of amusement for mice and other possible creatures.

But are we toys?
I'm not a toy, You're not a toddler.
You're not a toy, I'm not a toddler.
We're both humans (last I checked).
We feel, We interact, We learn, We grow, We notice, We make mistakes, We communicate, We love, and in some cases, We come to hate.

Don't be my "Once a shiny new toy" please. I have more than mice in my attic.